It’s been over a month since I’ve written anything, which is pretty bad if I’m being honest. I’ve kind of fallen off the blogging bandwagon, my Pinterest views have almost entirely disappeared, and I don’t think I’ve gained an Instagram follower in months. And I kind of don’t care. That’s not to say that I’m over it all, it’s just to say that I think I need to give myself a break.
Blogging consistently is HARD (I mean, I guess you could argue that doing anything consistently is hard), and I’m good at it, but not great, definitely not the best. I don’t usually read posts until after I publish them. I don’t promote myself everywhere anymore. And I’ve drifted away from a number of the communities I found from being a ‘lifestyle blogger.’
That being said, I think I’m starting to get it. I’m starting to develop my voice a bit clearer online. I’m starting to only partner with brands I know and trust. I’m starting to really only write about the real shit. And I’ve been doing this for four years!
A lot has changed over the last few months. I graduated from college, I broke up with my boyfriend (and then immediately got strep throat, cause karma), I got a new job, and I got a tattoo. But I think the biggest thing for me has been learning what matters most to me in my life. Being close to my family, a supportive community, and local to global engagement and activism are things that I’ve been seriously missing for 4 years.
Yesterday I went to a hot yoga class (which was horrible–who doesn’t play music at all in a yoga class?) and I couldn’t settle. I couldn’t focus. My mind is all over the place just like my life at the moment, so it’s only fitting to bring some of that energy here too. I’m a little bit more of a mess than usual, but fuck it, right? I think it’s all gonna be okay eventually.