I just finished my first week of my senior year of college! It’s almost surreal. On one hand, I can’t believe I’m graduating. On the other, I’m so excited to graduate! Change is hard, but exhilarating and I truly can’t wait to see where this year takes me.
My first week felt like it was barely moving. Most of it was filled with auditions and callbacks and talk of our theses and showcase. I still don’t think I’ve caught up on sleep!
Mostly, this year is all about prepping us for auditioning and working as artists outside of an academic institution. Come Spring, I’ll be showcasing in both Boston and New York. We do a lot of mock auditions this year and think about where we want to end up. We also focus on thesis, which for me is basically a one woman show.
Another crazy part of this year is that Alex is here too! He’s moved into his first ever dorm room and is double majoring in political science and screenwriting. It’s been slightly challenging this week for us making the change. I think I feel this more than he does, but it can be hard to know that we’re in such different places in our lives. Alex is just starting college while I’m in my last year. This week has been a good reminder of that.
As far as my future goes, I have no idea what I want to do/be! And while I stress about it sometimes, mostly I’m really grateful. I like the possibility of it all. I like being able to not know for just a little bit longer. And someday, I will know, maybe, or maybe I’ll just keep exploring.
I feel very deeply that I’ll probably move back to Phoenix someday. I feel that I’ll probably be self-employed as something. I feel that I’ll always identify as an artist, and that theatre will be a part of my life, but it might not always be the biggest part. And I really think that’s okay with me. I’ve loved (most) of my time in this program, but I feel ready to tackle other parts of myself.
And who knows! Maybe I’ll be completely wrong. Let’s live in the unknown just a bit longer.