I have a love/hate relationship with acting, and that’s painful for me to admit. I grew up taking theatre classes, learning music, dancing around the house, and performing in general. I went to an arts high school and majored in theatre, which inspired me to audition and choose to go to college to get a BFA in Acting. I loved it. Being onstage telling stories, playing characters, was my favorite thing in the world. When I fell out of love, I was shocked and lost. I couldn’t explain it. How did I suddenly hate something I used to love so much?
Being in school focusing only on acting made me second guess myself. While I clearly knew what I was supposed to do, I’d completely lost sight of what it was I loved about it. I was stressed and wondered if I was even good enough. I wondered why I liked this at all. Then I took a step back and realized that it wasn’t about the costumes or lights or being the center of attention.
For me, I always it has always been the stories. Telling other people’s stories. I love acting because I love being able to tell someone’s story when they aren’t there to tell it them self.
That’s what this is all about for me. I don’t understand what the point of doing something is if it doesn’t help other people in some way. I lost sight of that for a while, but that lost love helped me to better understand exactly what I enjoyed about performing. Looking forward, who knows what I’ll do. Maybe I’ll continue acting, or maybe not. But either way, I know for sure that I’ll end up doing something to benefit others. I feel lucky to have found my vision.
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