A few weeks ago, my acting teacher asked my class, “How many of you believe in love at first sight?” I immediately raised my hand and looked around the room to see…only three other people with their hands up. Out of a class of 15 people, 4 of us believe in the possibility of love at first sight. Huh. That’s not very many.
The truth is, I want to believe in love at first sight, but I don’t know if I do. I’ve never experienced it. I’ve never looked at someone and just thought “oh. that’s it.” But what I have done is met someone, gotten to know them, and then one day looked at them and everything stopped. For a second, everything stopped. In Tim Burton’s movie, Big Fish,the main character says “It’s true what they say, when you meet the love of your life, time stops.” Time stopped.
It was like flicking on a switch. I just knew. That’s all there was to it. I just looked at him and I knew. That was it, I was done, show was over, case was closed, I was in love with the one person I was supposed to be in love with.
Now, I don’t know a lot about love and emotions, but what I do understand is that love tends to be more powerful than any logic or reasoning could be. So when I talk about love, that’s a big deal. Love isn’t calculated or clarified, it just is.
I want to just be in love. I want to know so much in this world, but what I will never know is how exactly I came to be where I am, being loved and loving the person I do. And that’s okay. The unknown is okay. Where I am, right now, is far more than okay. Because at the end of my day/month/year/life, I will settle for nothing less than fully, deeply, and truly loving the one person I love most, and letting them love me.